1108
but I know you could be
and when you shave yr hair off
you look just like a nazi
isn't it alarming
in a room of hundreds
you were so disarming
til you went up my dress
well it's not fine
it happens all the time
it's not fine
but it happens all the time
i got a knife got a knife got a knife but i'm paralyzed
knife got a knife got a knife but i'm shooting blind
i don't know who you are
don't know where you are
but you need it need it need it
I shouldn't feel endangered
in a room of strangers
but when yr pressed against me
they can't see what yr doing
yeah i think you are a monster
that's the only thing I can sense
next time that I feel you
I will do the damage
i got a knife got a knife got a knife but i'm paralyzed
knife got a knife got a knife but i'm shooting blind
i don't know who you are
don't know where you are
but you need it need it need it
feelin like a lame horse
so scorned
don't wanna go down so easy
anymore
3 6 9
3 o clock in the morning
and I'm clinging to yr knees
this is not like me
this is not like me
I beg you to stay over
I simper I act weak
I will be sorry
tomorrow morning
it's just that when I'm with you
I cannot keep my cool
it's like when you're around
I get stupid
6 o clock in the morning
I'm tired but I can't sleep
I walk suburban streets
I walk suburban streets
and sobering is like a judgment
and everything feels mean
the light of morning
shines sternly on me
I think the way that you smile
just reminds me of better times
and the way that you laugh
like mother's angel
and it's the way that you drive
(like you're fucking out of yr mind)
and the heat of your skin
makes me crazy
you tie me up
get my circuits crossed
I just get so damn lost
you tie me up in knots
9 o clock in the morning
I finally get to sleep
so tired I cannot dream
so tired I cannot dream
the only thing I can hope for
is next time I see you
I will be thinking
I won't be such a wreck I'll show you that
I'm not the girl I was that night
I somehow lost my pride
and threw myself at your feet
in desperation
y'know when you hit me like that
I think I started to go mad
my brain fell out of my head
cos I like you like that
you tie me up
get my circuits crossed
I just get so damn lost
you tie me up in knots
I think this time I might've blown it
my game is weak and now you know it
I think this time I might've blown it
I want too much and now you know it
A Letter I won't Send
but you know that I can't be
My love's no appliance
I can't guarantee it
my affection's no faucet
I can't turn it off
when it gets inconvenient
one more time tell me you want me
pretend like you mean it
I reject your rejection
at least for these reasons
I'm not sure I'll be here
not when it's so clear
in your mind I'm gone
'cause unlike the saying
I think absence is needed
it helps me to forget
the things that I wanted
til I think I just dreamed them
I never believed them
and in time it leaves my mind
I can say that I get it
we both know it's bullshit
I don't know what will happen
and neither do you
I just need to know I did everything I could
I was totally out there and honest
and you, you are stubborn,
but me, I'm capricious
you had your mind mde up but
mine, it still switches
from things as they could be to things as they should be
I don't care what's right anymore
so I wrote it all down
in a letter I won't send
a list like you gave me
chock full of good reasons
that left me dumbfounded as the night that we first kissed
and both knew what we did
you are steadfast,
not influenced by the pack
you leave me speechless
be it furious or glad
and you're so familiar
like an older brother
and the affect, accent
of your voice is classic
and thinking
and music
and making
aesthetics
You can say you don't want me
I won't take it badly
I am here in whatever capacity you'll have me
I am trying and I hope that's good enough
oh no
oh no
Dirty Hair Party
Do you ever think about those things we do?
Like standing in the shower clutching that shampoo?
Lather, rinse, repeat...it's an endless cycle
Maybe it's time to halt it
I thought about it in the midst of all those suds
I wondered what it meant to be above
the need for hygiene
the politics of pretty
and an idea came to me
It's a
Dirty Hair Party
Don't get it wrong, I'm not trying
To bring back grunge
I just want people to be real
This dirt accumulates; we try to hide it
Let's be honest for a change
At the
Dirty Hair Party
You said you were washing your hair that night
But I knew that was only out of spite!
For my
Dirty Hair Party
Excitebike
but I don't believe a thing you say
anymore
I think you hide things
we used to be so close
but we aren't anymore
I guess I imagined all the ways
we used to click
so we head out for a ride
you don't know it yet
but it will be the last time
I threw you off so easily
and now we're tumbling down the highway
like debris
my mother she sent me
a postcard asking why
I don't know, I wanted a chance to start again
I meant for us both to
meet our final end
and I guess I was granted a continuation
and in it's bitter circumstance
I can't help but feel a little glad
to be out of it
I couldn't stand all of the quiet
couldn't take all of those lies
about being fine
and now it's finally done
in life you hated attention
in death you finally got some
I just wanted to go with you
and go back to those days when
everything I knew
revolved around trust in you
it's easy as a game
I rev the engine
but when it ends
we cannot stay this course again
it's time that we stop playing
cause life has no reset
and when it ends we cannot do it over
February
I'm swimming in their blue
sunk deep into a pool
of words to soak up you
the water makes a pitter patter
against glass and broken hearts
noncommittal starts
limerence and darts
love and all its arts
but none of that shit really matters
because
i can't slip out of here like the clothes, the water, no
and I can't imagine any more than just the here and now
and I know the beating of a heart can match the water flow
still I can't believe this is a go
but I care more than I want to
Oh I care more than I need to right now
is it relevant that water flows so effortless
I can't believe that I/you could fall
I cannot comprehend which way this river bends
past random chance and dirty dance floors
I cannot try to hide from the light in your eyes reflecting dewdrops like a dawn of fresh starts
because
i can't slip out of here like the clothes, the water, no
and I can't imagine any more than just the here and now
and I know the beating of a heart can match the water flow
still I can't believe this is a go
but I care more than I want to
Oh I care more than I need to right now
is it relevant that water flows so effortless
I can't believe that I/you could fall
Fight Song
We gotta wear a uniform
bought at a consignment store
29.99
to look like we don't have a dime.
We gotta look like you
To hang out with you
So now we got the look
Tired of trying to fit in
we're always sticking out
we sing cos we love a ba ba ba da
you can all go to hell.
we gotta play the same chords
as thurston played on un mille feuille
write a song in five
that'll make you sound real tight
We gotta sound like you
to play with you
well now who's got the hook...
you can keep us out of your write ups
and you can kick us off your shows
We'll keep singing ba ba ba da
cos what the hell do you know
you can't tell us how to be vegan
you can't tell us how to be punk
you can't tell us who to be seen/scene with
you can't tell us who we can love
(ba ba ba da)
Why bother trying to fit in
we're always sticking out
we sing cos we love a ba ba ba da
you can all go to hell.
because we are the pink flag
the mighty mighty pink flag
everywhere we go
people wanna know
who we are
so we tell them
we are the pink flag
the mighty mighty pink flag
because we are the pink flag
the mighty mighty pink flag
everywhere we go
people wanna know
who we are
so we tell them
ba ba ba ba da da
PINK FLAG!
Game On
coasting on the fumes
of these nights with you
Cmon and choke me
fill my lungs with smoke
I do not want to breathe
I'm gonna burn burn burn at both ends tonight
but it'll make make make such a lovely light
I'm gonna run run run the tired out of me
game on
it's everywhere
there's powder in the air
I'm never gonna sleep
come on and stroke me
till I'm out of focus
I don't want to see
I'm gonna pay pay pay for this cloudy night
and just hope hope hope things turn out right
I'm gonna go go go til the morning sun is here
game on
quiet now you say
it's time to sleep sleep sleep the days away
you climb into my brain
and say i just need need need something to stay awake
game on
Haunted
in everyone I meet in everyone I know
time and time again I try to exorcise you
but you still won't go
the shadows that appear
I see you in the dark
shouldn't I be scared
I see you in the dark
Every day and night I vacillate
elation to despondency
yeah you got yr sheets you got your chains
you shake shake shake shake shake them at me and
the shadows that appear
I see you in the dark
shouldn't I be scared
I see you in the dark
CB TV everywhere I go I see these versions of you around me
nightmares dreamscapes someone keep me awake, I don't want to feel so hunted
haunt me haunt me haunt me baby
Oh the shadows that appear
I see you in the dark
the monsters that you fear?
they're coming after you
I Work Here. What's Your Excuse?
you don't
you sit so silent staring
why don't you just go home
and every time I see yr face
it hits me like a tidal wave
all my body knows to do is shake
and I don't want to let you see me crying again
I don't want you under my skin
why do you come here over and over again?
I swear sometimes I wish you had just killed me that night
well I work here,
what's your excuse?
for visiting this graveyard
it's borderline abuse
and every time you're in this place
you hit me like a hurricane
I am simply blown away
and I don't want to let you see me crying again
I don't want you under my skin
why do you come here over and over again?
I swear sometimes I wish you had just killed me that night
We're always up, down, up, down
up and down.
Kill Your TV
i know
what you say
it's not alright
ain't ok
you lying
is nothing new
but now i'm done
and i'm through with you
i know what you say
yeah i face you every daylook around and look confused
and everything will be alright
if that's alright with you, well?
i can be mean
and i can be rude
so when you think of it
i can be just like you
now just in case
you're a little confused
we are done
fuck you
i hate you more everyday
i cannot close my eyes and bite my tongue just go away
everything you say's a lie
you're even lying when you tell me that this is goodbye
King of Scene
the king of scene
you were a star
you thought because you played guitar
you had it all
but who knows what tomorrow brings
fame don't exist without some strings
and you got tangled up
somehow you tripped and fell
on the primrose path of dalliance
let go of my hand
and slipped out of my life
and 5 years later on
you've become a cautionary tale
you used to be great
but now there's nothing left at all
nothing left of you
and curled up naked in a ball
you tell me all about the cars
and the women all the odd jobs
you still can't see where you went wrong
you still can't find the words to
string together a solitary thought
somehow you tripped and fell
on the primrose path of dalliance
let go of my hand
and slipped out of my life
and 5 years later on
you've become a cautionary tale
you used to be great
but now there's nothing left at all
I used to think you would go far
I used to wish I could be yours
and tell you all my secrets and my dreams
and now I'm lying in yr arms
cos I just wish that you would go
because you just make me feel like a fool for believing in you
Luckies
Got cigarettes
4 and 50 cents
they're from a man
who can't be trusted
I got one for good luck
one for good fuck
oh yeah
You know you will never use them
give 'em to me, give one to me
I know my luck's gonna change
I just believe, I must believe it
Who knows what tomorrow brings
I count my steps
I watch the cracks
I turn over the bottom lefts
when I buy new cigarettes
I got one for good luck
one for good fuck
oh yeah
You know you will never use them
give 'em to me, give one to me
I know my luck's gonna change
I just believe, I must believe it
Who knows what tomorrow brings
Give me something real to believe
and I swear I'll give up everything for you
Hold out, something better's gonna come around
Mayor of the Federal
don't want to keep watching the door for your face
I'm paying the barman in cash in case I gotta
cut and run
I can't seem to escape you wherever I go to
I used to like it but now I'm not sure
I just don't know how to take you or how to talk to you
since we don't really talk anymore
and I can't stay away
I love this place
I'll never forget the feel of your fingers
interrupting my sleeping that day
you held me so tightly it choked me politely
and somehow I felt safe
Napalmed our kid on a Thursday, mourned it on Friday
by Saturday you're poking fun
I just want to be with you without all the issues
but I keep on fucking up
I can't stay away
I love this place
It's one more thing I won't tell you but if you only knew
the way I dreamed about that night
worked my nerve up to ask you--like a little fool--
if you'd eat my heart alive
Now I sit at the bar with my back to the window
I don't want to see your face
I shouldn't keep coming, I shouldn't keep waiting
but hope fills me with faith
and I can't stay away
I love this place
Nancy Drew
I'm sitting in the locker room
I'm playing Nancy Drew because
I gotta find the final truth
Don't blame me cos what can I do
you know I have these clues
just sitting here in front of me
I just need help to see
the picture's sitting right in front of me
and I believe when I know what's what
I'll have you on your knees, yes really
uh oh uh oh
I'm sitting in a waiting room
I'm playing Nancy Drew because
I'll never reconcile with you
you'll never admit it was you
but I can sense the truth
between the leaves of these old magazines
I just need help to see
the picture that is right in front of me
and I can't give up the ghost
until I have you on your knees, yes really
Neo
when the morning comes
i will be all alone in bed
and you didn't hear a word i said
but it will be okay
cause tomorrow may
bring the joy i need and you
will say that you love me too
Take my hand
we'll spend the night
making plans
And starting our lives
Now that we've made it
to each others souls
let's make it official
And lose control
Take my hand
we'll spend the night
making plans
And starting our lives
Ninja
I'm on the floor
I'm rolling over and over again
I'm begging you
don't make this harder than it has to be
Don't shut that door
I'm coming in now
I'm on the roof
I'm crouching like hidden tiger
I'm telling you
I'll get in one way or another
Don't shut that door
I'm coming in now
Patterns
Am I stuck in patterns?
Repeat repeat repeat
Am I stuck in patterns
But what could they be?
Am I stuck in patterns?
Am I stuck in pattterns?
They're all so abrupt.
Am I stuck in patterns
That I can't interrupt?
Am I stuck in pattterns?
Nervous always nervous cause I can't really see
Even when the choices are right in front of me.
Tell me something tell me
what can I believe?
Can I know? (You can't know anything)
Can I think (Only inside time)
Only inside mind
And patterns of design
Am I stuck in patterns
I'm being obscene
Am I stuck in patterns
But what does that mean?
Am I stuck in Patterns?
Circles all in circles
everything's spinning
I can hardly know what the next day brings
I just sit and wonder what can I perceive
And what could I believe?
Can I break free of this theory?
Can you relate to me clearly?
What does all mean really?
Really?
Phoenix
where this was headed
betcha thought i'd grown
And that i'd accept it
now that you know
I'm not pathetic
How do you feel
do you regret it
now that the table's turned
Now that you've fucked up
come take what is yours
you know i adore ya
oh oh oh oh
Roman Candle
Light me up
I think I'm ready now
to get burned
and watch it chain react
and it's gold
and it glitters like you've never seen
but I forgot
that we cannot begin
UNTIL YOU COME
I am waiting in the dark
I am glistening for your spark
I am waiting in the dark here for your spark
ten o clock
and we will soon begin
to line up
and watch the world go blind
'cause we're drunk
we're giddy full of life
at the park
we will be waiting here
UNTIL YOU COME
I am waiting in the dark
I am glistening for your spark
I am waiting in the dark here for your spark
close your eyes
and feel the sparklers on your cheeks
and it's good
now aren't you glad you came
School
mom don't make me go to school today
you don't recall how hard it is to be young
the other kids always point and make fun of me
fourteen year old girls have no mercy
I'm gonna hide out at the park
I'm not going and you can't make me
I'm not ready and you can't wake me
I'm not going and you can't make me
I'm not going and you can't make me
mom drop me off a half a block away
I don't wanna be seen in your car
they all look at me like I'm some kind of freak
but that don't mean when they kick me I'm not gonna bleed
I'm gonna hide out at the mall
I'm not going and you can't make me
I'm not ready and you can't wake me
I'm not going and you can't make me
I'm not going and you can't make me
I'm gonna grab my longboard
ride it to pac sun
I'm gonna hide in the dressing room
until the 3:00 bell has rung
I'm not going and you can't make me
I'm not ready and you can't wake me
I'm not going and you can't make me
I'm not going and you can't make me
Your ass is grass right after class bitch!
Spacegirl
Satellites up the sky.
While you have been here since the dawn of space-time. You're so sure of your size.
You emit so much light.
But I'm not another girl that you can
Pull into your world.
I got my own planet and it is
not orbiting yours!
Though gravity weighs down on me
I'll still take my own course
Not another girl
Whoa. Outer space can be cold. All the dust and black holes that I tend to spiral through.
Oh, when I look at your glow. Ya know that I know that our particles could collide.
But I'm not another girl that you can
Pull into your world.
I got my own planet and it is
not orbiting yours!
Though gravity weighs down on me
I'll still take my own course
Not another girl
Roaming round with this rogue planet
Traveling at the speed of light
Will you catch up to my view?
Or are you a galaxy
so big and yet so empty
that I can never get to you?
But I'm not another girl that you can
Pull into your world.
I got my own planet and it is
not orbiting yours!
Though gravity weighs down on me
I'll still take my own course
Not another girl
Spooky
Everyone's talking but not to you
The room is dark and everyone's staring everyone's staring
Do you want them to?
You can't stand the thought of breathing can't stand the thought of breathing
the smoke chokes as it curls towards the glass ceiling
Can't stand the thought of breathing/
The mirrors all around you reflect the lack of meaning
And they'll never admit what's true
They never bothered to think of you
No they'll never admit what's true
There was never opportunity there for you
They say you gotta compromise to make it
But I'm mad as hell and I won't take it!
Tag
hide and seek was never a game
I was any good at
but you dragged me here
and forced my hand to play
so you run and hide
and I shut my eyes and count to ten
I don't even know why I bother looking
you say don't go but won't speak don't stand so far away from me
red light green light
no I never understood the rules
but its always your way now we gotta play
so you turn your back
and I take a step
and you catch me now we gotta start again
you say don't go but won't speak don't stand so far away from me
you said I'm it
but I don't wanna be it like that
you said I'm it
but I don't want to chase you around
don't go
won't speak
don't stand so far away from me
Ted Bundy's Heart
I am not a monster even though I act like one
I am not a monster even though I've got his heart
I'm not a monster even though I act like one
By acting like they expect to be hurt, do they subtly encourage it?
All those girls, so unremarkable
So many people in the world, tell me what's one more?
I'm not a monster but I know he was
I'm not a monster but I understand his heart
Trick With a Knife
you say you wanna see a trick I'll show you lickety split yeah I'll show a trick with a knife
I don't know what you're thinking now
I don't know why you haven't turned and run away
I'm not sure I believe this
I'm not sure how you're still breathing
Hey you!
well you wanna see a trick I can show you a trick yeah you want to see a trick of the mind
yeah you want to see a trick I can show you super quick I will kick you then I'll spit in your eye
I don't know what you're doing now
I don't know why you're still lying (like a rug)
I'm not sure I believe this
I'm not sure how you're still breathing
Hey you!
RUN
Up All Night
well you got me wound up pretty good
but if you set me down
I'll just teeter totter back to you
if it's a game you'd like
well I'd play anything you ask me to
I don't just let you win
it's not like I could have beaten you
you got yr hooks in my mind
I don't know why
I still smile when I think of you
I get this pain in my chest
you know I can't rest when
you're not around
ooh
if it's a laugh you want
well just ask me and I will make good
cos I'm a fool for you
and although you deny it we both know it's true
If it's a song you want
I got hundreds of them about you
you keep me up all night
you know I don't breathe don't sleep when you're not beside me
you got yr hooks in my mind
I don't know why
I still smile when I think of you
I get this pain in my chest
you know I can't rest when
you're not around
ooh
It wasn't meant to be
a case of bad timing
if you really wanted me
you would've tried for me
I can't get you out of my mind
and god knows I try,
but it's not over yet between us honey
you are my greek tragedy
you should be with me,
you know I can't breathe when I'm without you
ooh (you know that I can't breathe)
ooh (you keep me up all night)
Urgency
Cut the cable. Are you able? Is it stable?
Just peel the label. Set the table. Spin your fables.
You're walking down the street but where are you going? Your actions ain't so sweet with everyone knowing
the way you drag your feet across that floor.
But no
Don't let go
Of those hearts you hold
Just make it known
Draw the curtain. If you're certain. If it's worth it.
Pound the pavement. Make your statement. Ya gotta work it.
So go and make your mark, take your stand, the urgency you know makes its demand that you go and pick your feet up off that floor.
So know
You can't let go
Of those hearts you hold
Just make it known.
"I don't want to, or I don't need to." Please don't let those words deceive you!
While your apathy shows, the urgency grows. Don't let that flame go cold!
"I don't want to, or I don't need to." Those words can never complete you.
No!
